Spooked

My dad told me that the past week when I was not at home an accident happened in the block opposite my room. A maid fell off the building, I don't know if it's an accident or a suicide. And the view from my room to the site where it happened is perfect T_T

Spooky!

Anyway I went to Comfort Driving Centre to open an account today, so I'll take my Basic Theory Test on the afternoon of June 13. Yeay. A first step to driving.

I hope I won't flunk it though. Choy! 'Cos if someone I know can fail BTT, things must really be hard to predict.

Saya sangat sedih

Can someone get me those huge clocks with ultra loud alarms?

I'm supposed to have a lecture now...but...I overslept. I overslept yesterday, I overslept today, what else?

T_T

Hey I reallly want to wake up on time and go for lessons. I don't know what is wrong with me since JC, higher tendency to oversleep.

Grrr.

I think I should find those loud alarm clocks. I already have two alarms - my cellphone and a cheapo clock. I don't know if they wake me up at all. 'Cos I don't remember if I switched the alarm off or the clocks gave up on waking me.

T_T

I don't wanna be like this.

Hmmph.

I really should leave blogs alone and study reeeaaaalllll hard.

Currently brainstorming for an essay that I've got to submit by this weekend. My topic is something about the intersection between science and the arts. It's pretty agonising because the module Freshman Seminar is an S/U module, so you know, when you don't have time, just don't put too much time and effort. However this essay I've got to write conscientiously because our essays will be sent to The Straits Times editor-in-chief to choose one of our essays to publish. My point is not to get my essay published, my point is not to tarnish NUS' image to too large an extent. You know, when your work is as if it is NUS' work.

The deadline is the midnight of this Sunday. But I'm not sure if midnight of Sundays mean the 12 a.m. between Saturday and Sunday or the midnight between Sunday and Monday. The submission folder is still kept open after the midnight between Sat and Sun of our previous assignment. And then I realise, the folder never closes -_- So it is hard for me to determine the deadline. I shouldn't do last minute work, but I have been doing last minute work. Thus deadlines are as important as snoozes are to me.

But snoozes have been failing me (I have two clocks waking me up to no avail recently). I overslept for a tutorial today, so I have to go for another tutorial tomorrow. If I woke up on time, I'd be able to end lessons at 10 a.m instead of 1 p.m. =C

So I got my punishment.

Anyway, I went to check - while I was distracted from studies, like 99% of the time - the temperatures and currency of Italy. In mid-year while we'll be in Italy, it'll be their summer time if I'm not wrong, the temperature is at about 26 deg C, which is the hottest all year round. So it'll be relatively cooling la. Good enough. I don't want it to be too hot. I'm unsure about the currency, dunno if it's Euros or the Italian Lira.

1.00 ITL = 0.001045 SGD and 1.00 EUR = 2.023057 SGD. If things are in Lira there then calculations will be rather complicated. For Euros we just have to times 2 to get the approximate price in SGD.

OK la, that's all.

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Ah, feels so great to enjoy being in a band all over again.

Heh.

I miss alighting at CFA!

I hope!

Ah, distracted from work again. Sigh. Concentrate, concentrate, concentrate. Tampines is freaking stuffy.

Oh, going Italy in a few months' time. Quite excited about the events and people there. Homestay! Hope I get a really sweet and warm family. Hur hur. 想得太早。

And I hope *fingers crossed* that I'll get window seats!! Then I'll just snap and snap and snap lovely pictures of the beautiful sky.


Oh so nice.

Ah

Work work work work.

Last night was Sheare's Hall D&D, SHOLLYWOOD. And I just woke up!

T_T

Got essay to submit by tonight, but there's TPJC Alumni concert.

Sighhh. I wanna sleep some more.

Discipline!

Whahaa.

How sad

The Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging for Concert Bands (Secondary) is coming in less than a month. Hai Sing's turn is on Thursday, they're the fifth band in the afternoon. Usually ever since I've graduated, I'll make a trip down to catch their performance without fail.

This time, I won't be able to make it I think.

Why?

Because I have lessons that I can't skip T_T

From 12 to 2 p.m. I have PC1327 test, and after that till 3 I have MA1101R lab quiz. What the hell.

I wanna go see them perform T_T

It's always because of work that I miss performances that I wanna watch. Last month I wanted to go for a tuba recital at YST and right on that slot, I have mid-term tests.

So pissed. Hmmph.

If only!

If only I could tongue this fast!



I have a fat and retarded tongue. =C

My closest primary school pal

I went to Aaron's graduation recital today. And return the worn-out mute along the way. I'm so sorry there were extra dents and scratches on the mute. -_-

Anyway, Aaron played four pieces, of which two had piano accompaniment. The pianist played her part like it was damn easy. She looked so comfortable.

And now for Aaron. Piangs. After three years he's damn pro now la. -_- kns. Whahahaa. I'm jealous!

I almost wanted to go to NAFA after secondary school, had not for financial issues. =( But it is amazing to think if I'd be at least half as good as Aaron if I spent three years there. And I'm not sure what I'd do after graduation anyway.

Aaron's skills got standard already lo. Haha. His slurs flowed very nicely, and what impressed me most is his performance of Fnugg. AAAhhh. And I take back the ear sore comment, because listening to it live is really wah-wah-woo-weet. Haha. All the multiphonics, 'beatboxing', etc. Very nice! He said he missed quite a few notes, but I didn't realise. =\ And I'm super envious! They had a lesson with Oystein Baadsvik before!!! They as in the NAFA tuba guys. So good. So that's how they got the score for Fnugg. For Baadsvik's performance of Fnugg do scroll down and start the youtube player.

I also want those lessons =\

And after that Mr Yeo sent me to the west so that I can take 151 back to school. Yeay. But after that Aaron called me when I was waiting for the bus. 'Eh you gone already ah?' He thought that we could have a drink after donkey years. But. Lessons at 6 p.m. later on. So I hopped into Mr Yeo's car and back to school.

I find that I haven't been keeping in touch with Aaron and Mr Yeo, because when I went to their tiny practice studio in the school, he asked, 'So how are you? And your alto saxophone boyfriend?' -_____- It's been over for so long already. So that's actually how long I haven't chatted with them. Ha. I think the last time was the Canadian Brass concert two years back. And because of that question Yin Xuan joked that Mr Yeo was interested in me, and the latter said that he's more interested in 我拜他为师。 -_- But I got no money and don't really have the time to go for lessons considering my schedule now. And quite scared also. See la, so wasted.

Shall stop blogging already, because I have a lot of work to catch up on. Exams are so freaking near. So so near.

InTempo 2007 - The Aftermath

I'm more light-hearted after the concert, since the pressure is more or less gone.

Heh.

I don't know how to describe my feelings now.

InTempo was great, one of the best concerts that I've ever performed in all my 7 years in band. Probably because it was the technical difficulty of the pieces that I felt I achieved something bigger than before. A hefty sense of satisfaction, I must say. Though I played a lot of wrong notes - at least ten per piece - I still felt....undescribable. Haha. 爽呆了。Some pieces really made us go high, but of course since the repertoire was filled with great pieces.

Kudos to Mr Leonard Tan, our conductor, for his very good skills in guiding us. His choice of repertoire, his expressions, etc. First time that I had a conductor who danced on the podium. =\

My NUSWS tuba section, Hui Shan, Derek, Daniel, Yong Kiat and Wei Ping and the alumni Si Seng. You people made my time at NUSWS a surprisingly enjoyable one. I really enjoyed myself, like I could just fit in so easily. Must be me actually. Ahhh kidding kidding.

Hui Shan, thank you that I have you because I'd be sticking to Daniel and XH may get jealous. Whahaha. No la, thank you that I have you to stick around with. Heh. For the company, the extra information , the laughters, joys and the genuine laughter at my not-funny-at-all crap. For the 爱心牛奶，爱心药，and 爱心honey stars + marshmallows. Be there next semester hor.

Derek, what a crap of an SL you are. I'm sure Daniel will be a damn good SL =P Whahaha, no laaaaa. You're a totally different kind of SL that I didn't think I'd ever meet. You don't seem serious but in fact you are; you gave me the I-heck-care impression but you actually fulfilled your responsibilities. And come on time for band! Quit puffing! You may/may not be missed when you're in percussion next semester.

Dear Daniel, you're gonna be the principle player! Means my SL for the second time! Like I predicted =P. This is going to bring back Hai Sing memories again. But no, I'm not going to call you Kang-kor-kor, which is damn gross at this age. OK, to celebrate your new position do give me a treat. And of course, thanks to your presence in NUSWS that I needn't worry about feeling lonely at first. And it is also through you that I got to know many people in NUSWS, thank you!

Yong Kiat, stop MIA-ing! You're not going to come back next sem? Serious? You gotta come back! And yes, thank you for all your lame shit to bring some 'humour' into the section. -_- Eh, do come back next sem!

Wei Ping, good thing that your arms are long enough to put the mute for Poema yourself, if not I wouldn't have time to put in both mutes at the same time. Haha. And talking to me when Hui Shan wasn't around! It was nice knowing you! And are you going to stay on next semester! Come back come back!

Si Seng, thanks to Yong Kiat and you for playing the first few bars of Poema so at least there were tubas at that part!

It was damn great to meet all of you, it made my life in NUS even more colourful.

I think I'd feel like I'm in a totally new section if people who were in my section for InTempo 2007 will be gone next semester. =C

And the many many people that I got to know, too many to be named. I love you all =)

There were a lot of good feedback regarding Soaring Over the Ridges, the 1st Alps piece we played. Heh. I guess when it got to Poema, we were already too tired. On the whole I heard the concert was actually quite good, there were also compliments from non-band people. Thank you all very much.

Thanks to Dad, Mum, Bro, Ai Lin, Jesse, Yi Xin, Sock Leng, Jie Ying, Daphne, Jun Wen, Cedric, Amy, Zhi Long, Adeline, Felix, Hong Wei, Juli and her friend, Yin Xuan, Shu Ling, James and his wife, Li Hong, Kai Ling, Jonathan and all others for coming to the concert! And to those who didn't come, you missed out on a damn good concert la. Haha.

Anyway, I'm happy in NUSWS. Really. There were minor hiccups of course, but mostly, my time there was really fun. Band camp was a plus, that's how I got to know most of my friends there. Time flies, I only knew you people for almost three months, but it seemed like I've performed with you people many many times. It was because of you people that made me feel unafraid to play, I felt comfortable. I like going for band practices even though there were much opportunity cost to calculate. =P

Oh and my parents didn't doze off during the concert.

Ya and the photos that you all want, can get it from here.

I need to get a pair of comfortable black shoes for performances. The pair I wore was disgustingly uncomfortable, distracting me for the entire concert. =(

Thanks to anyone and everyone who made this wonderful concert possible, a concert that I cannot get enough of, a concert that made me keep looking back, a concert that made me want to enjoy all over again.

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InTempo 2007

National University of Singapore Wind Symphony

presents


InTempo 2007

18 March 2007, Sunday
1700 hrs
University Cultural Centre
$11 (inclusive of $1 SISTIC charge)

And if you have the Da Capo ticket stub, you're entitled to another $1 off the price of your ticket!
However if you go to the Sistic lady with the ticket stub, she'll not entertain you. Got to give me your stubs.

Repertoire is great!
(I don't lie about things like this even for advertising purposes)
Featuring a Singapore Premiere, Franco Cesarini's Poema Alpestre..
..and more you-should-listen pieces!
(I'm so not going to tell you what they are)

So what are you waiting for?
Get your tickets now!

Want a ticket? SMS me, IM me, or tag this blog and I'll find my way to you. =D
But I think you may need to go to Sistic to get the ticket yourself =\

Must come!

Hmm.

Tomorrow in the morning my parents are going to East Coast Park for a walk-cum-exercise. Sunday morning, my dad took leave, my mum needn't go to work, my brother will be working, I'll be in school preparing for concert, so they can go for a rendezvous. Lo-man-tik hor. Yaaaa. Haha.

Concert's tomorrow! Hope all goes well. =) For those who aren't gonna come, I think you'll quite regret! =P

InTempo 2007. Less than a day more.

Nice

Firstly introducing the beat-box tuba that I procrastinated to go about blogging.



I thought that it was quite an ear sore at the beginning, but more to the middle it became enjoyable.

And next this clip from Hui Shan who got it from Daryl. I think it's damn nice. It's rare that I'll like Chinese instrumental music.



I played on my brother's erhu before. I played Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and hey, I sounded good for a starter, but it was still as horrible =\

Ouch to the infinity

It felt like I was experiencing a break-up all over again. No, really, it really hurts.

This...this is something with the lack of practice.

But hey, we practised.

You may not know it, but (probably) even passionate tuba players feel deprived sometimes. What are we deprived of? Beautiful melodies.

And at NUSWS, we have a few, but one was prominent. The soli with lower woodwinds and double basses at the beginning of The Merry Wives of Windsor.

It's not that I'm sick of being backup, I know that tubas really do matter. But it is simply because we don't get to play melodies almost ALL the time that's why we treasured this so much. It was like the only time that tubas can rise up above and play like stars. Alas, we didn't play like we were required to, and we were stripped of our precious chance.



What really happened? Perhaps we should've practised even more to master that part. It was just a matter of more than three bars. We didn't perfect it at all, though we practised and practised and practised. The slur from G to Eb didn't work for us, and in addition my G to Bb sounded garbage-y.

So the conductor took that part away from us.

There's a sense of disappointment that I don't know how to describe to you. The shudder that I got when I realised what Mr Tan was talking about when he said tubas come in from bar 6 onwards, I counted and counted then realised he was ordering us to start playing after the soli. Meaning, to hell with tubas opening for InTempo 2007.

We were in no position to get that few bars back from us, since we couldn't promise that we could perfect it by Sunday. No way. But it was an extreme discouragement. The time that we spent to practise it...whose fault is it? All of our fault! The disappointment is there, I felt it. That shudder that I told you about. It was like going through a break-up when the person you were so mad about left you. Though I may smile and smile and smile, I could still feel the pain inside.

That few bars mattered so, so much.

Sick

...again!

It seems like my immunity level is really low.

Wasn't as bad last time though.

Ever since I got into uni I get sick like almost all the time. After SOW, I got a slight sore throat, before the exams I had a slight flu plus skin problem, fell sick during NUSWS band camp in December, and I'm sick now!

And all three times I went for supposedly-to-be free medical consultation and medicine at UHWC. So I happily went there this morning thinking that I need not pay. However yes I needed to, S$7.70 at that. =C

So freaking broke.

I felt really sick yesterday, so after sectionals I went back hall, bathed, and slept. It's been eons since I slept at 11 pm plus, I can't remember the last time I slept at this timing. And other than my mum calling and AL knocking on the door, I slept all the way through to this morning till 8 plus. And I skipped a tutorial because I didn't do =P But the feeling when I woke up was, woahhhhh. And I got the sleep I need and so I don't feel sleepy at all tonight.

Heh.

Selamat Hari Jadi, Bapa

Selamat Hari Jadi Ah Bean! Umur awak sudah lima puluh.

I'm sorry that you had to spend your birthday eating maggi mee alone at home, because both Mum and Bro were working. In addition, I wasn't around because I got school so stayed in hall.

I'm sorry that I didn't think that you'd be lonely last night, since I had band practice and I was very tired. Therefore I didn't even call you. All I did was to SMS you and suan that you're 50 years old, though you replied you're only 40. But we'll still celebrate at Crystal Jade on your lunar birthday!

I'm sorry I haven't been a daughter that you could be proud of, since I haven't been doing well in my studies, and I have no talents, whatsoever that you can tell your siblings about. Tentang awak gembira kerana awak ada seorang anak perempuan yang baik.

I hope you'll be proud of me when you see me perform this Sunday and not fall asleep. And understand that this is what I like to do.

I'm sorry I only have empty dreams that were not sought after and as much as I'd like to do well to ensure a stable job to bring money home, so that I can finally look after you and mum, I haven't been doing what I want to do. At all.

I'm sorry that you will still drive me around for breakfast because you were afraid I'd go hungry, and that'd use up your money as well as time for ferrying other customers around. I feel guilty all the time because I was taking away your chances at making money.

I'm sorry I haven't been strong, I've been relying on you, I haven't been confident of myself like how you can be of yourself, I haven't been working hard, I haven't been concentrating on work, I've been putting my time on other things, and that I haven't been listening to all your words like a good girl should have.

Still,

Saya cinta padamu.

I only said this here because I know you're not gonna read this.

I'll never say it to you face-to-face.

Thank you for bringing me up and doting on me these twenty years.

And I miss you.

Quite interesting

There's an influx of comments in particular posts of my friends' blog. Not because my friends said unethical/immoral/debatable/whatsoever stuff.

It's something like this actually:

Title: If you leave a comment on this post

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this [post] on your blog.

Kind of a time-waster, but people will always want to know how others think of themselves.

But because I like to think hard regarding this kind of things, I'll procrastinate this till I have some time to spare.

Actually, I can make sure less people will ask me to do that for them if I put the title as: "If you leave this comment 'Erina is very lovable' on this post", then I think I'll have very little to write. Or even none! Ah, good idea. Be truthful about it though =P

Anyway, I'll just paste what my friends commented about me. Keepsake.

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1. if u leave a comment, i'll reply lo! haha!
2. hmmm play a tuba concerto for concert :P
3. orange?? hehe cos of the bright orange shirt u wore :P
4. u tok cok too!
5. u came for welcome tea and i forgot liaoz haha!! oops! but i remembered u eating the buffet and toking together with the section :P
6. LION!!! ROAR!!!
7. where will i get my 爱心牛奶?? hehe
Hui Shan: Play a tuba concerto? Siao siao. The main repertoire I got trouble practising already. Haha. Eeyer like me because I talk cock. So sad. But I don't remember the buffet leh. You will get your 爱心牛奶 from Cheers at YIH. Just go there and buy. =P

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1. Oh you're a tuba lioness (eh?! haha!)
2. Find more interesting things for me to copy into my blog =P
3. Gold (lion's mane gold rite? haha!)
4. You sure can joke!
5. Band Camp!
6. erm... lion? haha!
7. Do you dance ballet?
Nick: No I don't do ballet! Whahaha. I think the ballet school would have failed me if I've ever been into one. How come you'll ask me if I dance ballet?

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1. GROWLS
2. You should try to.. wear long flowy skirts! Actually ah.. Shan and Yokes and Peekae also!!
3. Erm.. copy Nick.. hhaah Gold!
4. You talk cock! :p
5. I was asking Shan who is Erina as I was planning the band camp. Coz I want to put you two same room, coz tuba. She told me "Eh, actually she came for welcome tea, I think she quite nice.." Haha.. My clearest memory about you is about someone talking about you. :p
6. Err.. Lion? Wauhaha!
7. Hahaa.. This is going to be a bomber.. Can I link you? :p
Cloud: Haha, what you should challenge me is to FIND a long flowy skirt! Because if I got one that I like, I'll wear it. Surprise surprise. Haha. The reason I don't have one is because I didn't find any that I like. Why is everyone saying that I talk cock? I really do talk cock? But HS said she couldn't really remember me =\ Haha. Wah, her impression of me was unclear but I still can be a nice person. Woots. Q7 is a very hard question! I don't know how to answer people whenever they ask me this question. OK la, all you NUSWS people! If wanna link then link! =P

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1. boo! -makes a face-
2. play a loonnnnnngggg tuba solo in the next concert. heh
3. brown. more the tan sorta colour. not nine kae..
4. i like the way u have so many different ways of greeting people. all the different oneliners...
5. cant rem the 1st meeting but i think it's during band camp. how bout the clearest - all the different faces we made when we said 'boo' to one another. HAHA
6. lion
7. why tubalion ah?
Yokes: BOO. *makes a damn pretty face* WHAHA. I'll freak out playing solos la, so I guess that'll be quite far away! Because my skin is brown? Uh..why tubalion. I don't know. =\ Because I like the tuba and I like the lion but I can't go 'a tuba-playing lion' as it is quite long. So tubalion lo. Haha.

__________

1. hello! i din know u read my blog!!
2. Try paying attention to at least one SOM lecture hah!
3. Pink. Coz I remember seeing you wear a pink top before ha
4. That you are quite corny heh
5. During the band camp we were eating steamboat at the same table and it was great fun!
6. Lion laahh! Ha
7. Are u attached!?
PK: You pay attention too! Haha. .... pink is quite gross for me, and I don't remember wearing a pink top this semester. =\ Haha maybe I did. Haha of course it was fun because you get to eat! No I'm not attached! Heh. I'm available. You want? WHAHAHA.

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To be updated...and don't comment! Bleh.

A loooong day

Something just happened which made this day even more tiring. I was about to complete blogging a post when my laptop stopped moving. Which is this post.

OK.

Never mind.

Anyway...I was saying that...

Upon reading back in my archives, I found some sense of humour in my posts. This is what I like about blogging and why I blog - the story is about myself. I liked my blog, especially with a tinge of funny-ness in it. However most recent posts are day-to-day grumblings. Which has got nothing to laugh about nor anything to enjoy about. Sigh, I'm going to hate reading my archives one day. Probably that's why I named my blog Those Boring News for some reason; one day it'll be at this stage.

I actually thought of funny (in my opinion) things to blog about, but have never gone about doing them because of time and energy issues. I'm not telling the world my story, but I like to look back and senyum. I used to take photos, upload onto my blog, and talk about them. The funny things, the weird experiences, and the embarrassing moments, I'd take pictures or do something loony out of them. But like Mr. Flexi 'I got straight A' Yap said, I got bad time management which explains my poor results. Yes I know that. But I don't know what I can do about it. Yet.

Anyway, today was very tiring. Not only did I not do much homework, I did a lot of extra work. See, time management is really horrible.

In the morning I had to go to the University Hall for the Singapore Chemical Sciences Fair 2007 (I think it's named like that) for my SP1201 module. The facilitator told us we got to present our posters for one of the projects for that event. Supposed to reach there at 9 in the morning, however I overslept (what's new?). There were weird people who came to look at our exhibit and ask weird questions. Kids from a cream-of-the-crop Instition were stumped when my classmates asked them questions, it looked like they didn't even know what they were doing. Oh no, it was a he. Because when my classmate approached and started asking academic stuff about the Instition's posters, the rest of the group avoided and crept away. -_-

When we were dismissed it was 12 plus already I think, and when I left hall for home, it was 1330 hrs. Reached home at 1520, then realised I was very late. Had to wash clothes, pack performance attire, bring necessities back to hall, ate leftover breakfast. My mum cooked some of my favourites for dinner. The pun is, I didn't get to eat dinner. -_- After which I bathed and by the time I left home, it was 5 o'clock. Shit.

Supposed to reach NAFA at 5 plus to collect the tuba mute from Aaron, but it turned out that the mute belonged to Mr. Yeo who dumped it there. Haha. Then when I called Mr. Yeo and asked if he could bring the mute down to me he was like 'I got say I can lend you the mute meh?' But of course he wasn't serious though I was stumped and speechless. Aaron was having lessons, so in the end Yin Xuan brought the mute down for me. Thanks guys, sorry for the trouble.

The thing about carrying a tuba mute around town was that people look at the mute whenever they noticed. Why? Of course it'd be pretty weird to carry a huge metal thingy (though it was a pretty lady carrying it but they didn't bother) around town trying to hail a cab? Speaking of cabs, it took me more than 20 minutes to finally get on a cab. And the traffic jams pulled time and money as well. Was late for NUSWS already.

Someone asked me if the metal thing that I was holding was a cotton candy machine or steamboat. -_-


OK probably there are similarities after all. But hey c'mon if you hold the cotton candy machine the way I held the mute, I guess I'd be wrapped in sugary floss by the time I reached CFA.

Weird.

Band practice today was tiring for me, because I was already tired and hungry. Ate two siew mais and a bun as brunch, and a piece of roti prata which was the left over breakfast. That's all I ate before band practice. During the break I went to get subway. Only got a sandwich, but that was good enough. I came back to hall and heated up Campbell's Chunky. Not bad though.

And I can feel that I'm falling sick. My throat is getting very uncomfortable.

After band practice I walked to the Fong Seng area to meet James to pass him his tickets.

When I reached hall, it was long past 11 p.m. already. ZZZzzz.

And oh, two years already. Time really terbang.

So I'm going to sleep now, selamat malam.

A real-life tuba mute. Want one?

Terrible

There are a few terrible things about myself.

1. I need to apologise to those people
1. whose birthdates I remember but I don't remember the date of each day,
2. whose birthdates I thought I remember but I turn out to confuse numbers like 6 and 8 -_- or I just mix birthdates altogether.
   
2. I also need to apologise to those people
1. who knows me but I walk past you as if you were air. By the time I realised I knew the person who just walked past me, I was usually a step too late to smile and say hi. Sorry, but my eyesight is not good and I don't go around looking at everyone's faces. I'm not pretending to not see you or anything like that,
   
2. who thinks I'm cold when I don't say hi. You all were talking so I didn't want to interrupt.

I realised the seriousness of my 'condition' today, because I saw Ismy's SP whom I know too and waved hi, but I didn't realise with him was my SP. Sorry Kendrick. Haha. I felt so weird and embarrassed because he's tall and for some reason I didn't notice that he was one of the guys there.

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Ah, so many things to do, so many deadlines to meet. Bloody stressed. And signs of stress are showing already, there are big and small pimples making pores on my face their home. =( Hopefully they'll heal by the time InTempo is here. There is this stubborn pimple beside my nose which is big and not healing. Sighhhh. And my hair has been a bit weird these days, drier than usual. No differences with my daily habits, and I'm sick of trying to find out why. Grrrr.

Pimples and bad hair weeks give me down days. =(

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Today is a Friday, yet I can't go home because I have loads of work to complete, I have a project presentation tomorrow morning, band practice tomorrow evening till late. So I'm not sure when I can go home this weekend. Probably Sunday morning and come back to hall at night then. Shrugs.

I just had those pangs, like those I-miss-home pangs. It has been a routine for me to go home on Fridays, so now that I don't get to go home I'm feeling weird.

Saya lebih gembira

Hari ini saya ada sectionals tuba dengan tutor tuba. Tutor tuba bercakap tone saya baik. Tetapi saya tidak in tune.

Saya lebih gembira, sebab saya tidak ada teknik yang baik begitu saya ada tone yang baik, saya sudah gembira lah.

Saya tidak mahu show-off.

Tetapi saya penat dan saya perlu belajar untuk ujian esok. =(



P.S. I think I made a lot of grammatical mistakes. Shall review this again.

How does it feel?

I just got word that a percussion junior in Hai Sing who was two or three years younger than me wants to pull out of his last cycle of chemotherapy.

He was diagnosed with cancer.

I feel so helpless, yet quite angry at the same time as to why he's giving up.

But I don't know how it feels to have a terminal illness, and how it feels to really decide to give up on your life.

I didn't know him well and I still don't.

This is very scary.

I'm already moody...getting worse now I think. My heart is very heavy, now heavier. Can feel the discomfort building up around the chest. Sigh. This is pressurising.

I hate to experience this.

>=(

Midterm tests this week -> screwed. Really really screwed.

Why do I always screw up and forget things that I should know?

And I haven't been doing tutorials this week.

Then last minute I have more lame things to do this weekend. Like I wasted my time going from place to place this week a few times to do some stuff and I have to repeat the same routine, doing the same things again when I get home. What the hell.

Oh so pissed.

Sometimes I wonder if I should be less sinful and be nicer or not.

However in the world of reality, I hate to be a nice person.

Cheers to Daniel Kang who's always genuinely nice.

As days pass I'm becoming a try-hard-to-be-nice person when I don't even feel like being nice at all.

Pissed with everything, really.