cousin's wedding

today is my cousin maria's wedding. i dunno how old is she. but then her wedding is soooooooo good lo! i will also want my wedding to be in that manner, those photos and planning etc. and i think her husband is good, she's fortunate!

woke up at 5 plus to bedok where the tea ceremony etc is held. spent most of my time watching tv la, i dont really talk to my cousins much. they also dont talk to me. whaha. oh what i wanna say is the part where the groom has to go through tasks to get to the bride. haha. the sisters really wanna torment the groom. he had to eat things that are sour, sweet, bitter and spicy (酸甜苦辣), also had to peel bananas hanging on a bamboo pole, blah blah blah. he finally got into the house, but before he could enter the room, he and his brothers had to sing a song, cant take my eyes off you. the newly weds took a nice photo that is made into a poster with the caption 'too good to be true' and the lyrics of the song beside the standing couple. and its really those poster material ya. so they sang. the whole thing was really lively and enjoyable la, like the rest of us just see see also can laugh. haha. i didnt get the chance to sabo my brother-in-law because of time was tight.

blah blah blah, time to go home and rest first before proceeding to grand copthorne hotel for the wedding banquet at the grand copthorne waterfront hotel.

my parents and brother took the mrt there. i was very reluctant to do it, cos you make up blah blah and then take train like what only lo...so my sis and i took a cab there. shhhh.

in the cab along the way to the hotel
these are the ice carved swans outside the ballroom. so nice right!
this is the table and the candle plus the menu

the menu is not those typical printed on good quality paper type. its a very good quality folder with clips top and bottom of the spine and they printed a piece of paper and ta daa! the menu.

this is the stage with curtains as background. a bit different from the typical ballrooms, but still nothing much to me

before i stepped into the ballroom i scrutinised through the wedding photo albums. they were good! like the whole thing, how they took, very professional. there were some single shots of my cousin, and there's this very nice photo of the silhouette of my cousin and cousin-in-law against the sunset and they were holding hands. very nice! like you're flipping through some magazines and see the pictures and think that they're some stars in those magazines. really, those photos make you look very...very professional too. like those high society people (by the way my cousin-in-law is rich i heard. but he's a friendly guy).

the whole wedding was really impressive! the music chosen was good. when the couple first stepped in, they had their solemnisation on the stage in front of everyone! like so nice lo. moreover they also had to pay more to invite the solemniser over.

the curtains behind the stage were like usual decorations to me. in the end they opened to reveal a garden inside!!! they even put fake wind like so the plants were like swaying and it looked quite real la. except that you werent eating the delicacies on grass.

they employed this good photography firm to help them settle photos and videos for the whole day. during the dinner, there was something like this mini episode of the morning's activities. a very interesting video. the part i mentioned about the groom and the brothers singing cant take my eyes off you; the producer of the video added an actual song as background music and like the brothers singing along to it one...timing very good also! this is the best wedding banquet i've been to so far, i have to admit.

this is one of the 2 screens that are flashing the photos of the newly weds. this photo is that one they used for the poster
bro and me
thats one of the photos...very nice right this picture
the ballroom
the solemnisation
ta daa! the curtains were drawn to reveal the garden
me and mum
family

passed a job interview

an application & interview
supposed to go for a shopping spree with yixin for my new year clothes, and then i got a call from yixin in the morning telling me that recruit express called her and told her that they have a job for her...its for a position at starhub to promote i-mode...so i accompanied her to recruit express (re) to register. they didnt call me, i think its because of me having applied for another job with them and was still waiting for the call for an interview. but i waited for a few days liao still no news.

saw juling at re too. she came earlier than us and joined us, so i introduced yixin to her. they clicked really well lo. whahaha.

i was deciding whether i should apply too, then i asked my consultant there. she said can so she gave me a form and i was last in queue for the interview with the representative from starhub. after that my other consultant said i cannot apply because i didnt get the call and i couldnt be included in the queue. like sad lo. but he said he could help me ask if the lady will want to see me. she agreed! so i went inside and had an interview with her.

the interview was ok la, she merely asked what did i do at my previous job, and asked what i knew about i-mode. juling did research before she came and i got to know from her and yixin that i-mode is an internet service (rich content) for 2.5G and 3G phones. so i told the lady this. she added that i can do much more than wap if i use i-mode, cos if you go wap you cannot book tickets online those sort. with i-mode you can book tickets and even choose the seats. i was told that i have to promote this service along with the 2.5G and 3G phones to the public. ok la, im not afraid of talking to strangers.

there will be training sessions on the 17th to 20th. i work 5 days a week, but then i can only have the off days on 2 of the days during monday to thursday. compulsory to work on weekends.

so the 3 of us left to go shopping and waited for the call to tell us that we're in for the job. heh. juling had to go first, and she smsed me later in the afternoon at around 2 that she got the job! yixin and i were at katrina having our lunch and she was quite flustered, afraid that she wont get the job. a while later we got the calls! so we had to sign the contract on monday. so she was happier.

happy happy

a new problem surfaced
it occurred to me that i cannot join mus'art anymore. mus'art is an adult band i've always wanted to join, its conducted by mrs chua, my haising band conductor. moreover its her who asked me to join mus'art after my a levels. now i dunno if i can keep my promise that i will. mus'art practice is on every sunday and due to work i cant go anymore. also, in may, i have to keep my sundays free for this tuba choir. the condition is that you have to be available every sunday of may then you can participate. tuba choirs are quite rare in singapore, i've never heard of them anywhere and aaron already asked me to join, i promised him i'd. how now brown cow? moreover i wanna join the tuba choir too.

the contract for this i-mode job is about 6 months. sigh. i seriously dunno what to do.

shopped as planned
continued shopping with yixin, i tried everywhere and finally decided on this orange top and black skirt and yixin said they're ok on me, but they're not going to be matched together la. just that the more i look at that black skirt the more i think its so not me. whaha.



so i just have to wait till monday when i look at the contract, and ask around on what i should do because the problem is still bugging me.

a long awaited call + cookies

i applied for this admin job through jobstreet.com...recruit express posted the advertisement. i got a call and they asked me to go down to fill in some stuff and the like. so i had to wait till monday to know whether i get the job or not. felt happy that i got hope to get a job lo.

after that i went to ntuc to get ingredients for cookie baking...this is what happened in the end. i made cornflake cookies by the way. those crushed cornflake type.

i didnt do the heart shape on purpose. i found it while storing the cookies
my work

then for dinner my brother cooked campbell soup to add on to the rest of the dishes. he didnt cook it properly. however i found this.

the heart shape coagulated thing in the soup

i have an affinity with heart shapes today.

ouch

my chest hurts and i cant breathe properly.

i thought this year would be a better year for me. too late, bad things that occurred in 2005 were brought forward to this year. and its hard, its hard. can anyone comfort me?

why is it that im still jobless?

nevertheless i'll try to make this blog a happier blog - i'll try to remember things that are happy memories. a new start in 2006 for this blog. please let new year resolution no. 2 come true.

the first tears of 2006. new year resolution 1 and 3 down.

有时候，我真的需要依赖。

do i really deserve all these? perhaps it was something that i shouldnt agree last time...perhaps it was because of the way i handled the aftermath...but how come no one understands..how come i dont seem to understand the situation too?

lunch at mai's

mai invited us over to her place for lunch, before she set off back to london where she is studying there currently. i remembered going there quite frequently last time when we were really great pals, like spend all the time with her haha. we were in the same class in sec 1 and 2. jingyi, xinhui, cedric, daniel and i went. i bought hershey's milk duds and a teeny card for her. chocolate is in case she get cranky when she's hungry, tired or whatsoever. xh best. got a bar of toblerone. ced and dan more best. they got a sling bag for her. so nice right? ya they're nice. got me my first ever lion plush for my 14th birthday and i've been hugging it every night ever since. ok this isnt the point. heh. so here are the photos.

that's jingyi kissing that poor tiger she fell for at mai's place
and there's more than one
here's the swing that never stops creaking while ced, dan and xh are on it
here's what we had for lunch (from left): beehoon, fried platter of nuggets and the like, beef meatballs, and beehoon again. also had fruit juice that jy kept drinking
dan, me and ced
jy and mai
dan, mai and ced
me and xh
the koi at mai's place!
me and dan
ced and me
mai and me
oh thats me on the piano. look pro eh? that was a grade 2 recital book. sigh

i played this piece called the toymaker's song or sth on the piano, me on the bass clef part while dan on the treble clef part. we succeeded not-so-hardly. heh. after that i made out the melody for this mayday's song 知足. it starts on the C note. haha.

after that i didnt send mai off at the airport, xh went i think. ced and dan had to book in, i went home for dinner. yeP. but nevertheless...love ya mai!

its a new year

happy new year!!! yeP..happy happy..

new year resolutions?

1. i seriously can be happy.
2. get into university
3. 事事顺利

hope i can pass the next 7 months without thinking too much of the past.

supposed to have dinner alone

supposed to have dinner alone today...parents going for a wedding dinner, then brother going out with his friends...actually juling invited me to her bbq, but due to some circumstances i chose not to go..im so sorry..but anyway..i couldnt pass the time alone at home, at night..hongwei suggested that he'd accompany me for dinner, but blah blah blah, in the end he couldnt make it..so sad. heh. then went out with yixin and shunwei to telepark to register at a job agency there...shopped around after that then went home. while i was waiting for the both of them at tampines bus interchange i saw ber! heh then said hi a bit and reminded me of tsz shan! so asked the latter out for dinner, she could make it! so i was happy, at least can get someone to have dinner with me. also long time never talk properly to tsz shan le.

went to han's for dinner...and chatted with tsz shan alot. haha damm funny lo..sometimes talk about something also can laugh very loud...but really la, glad to have company and can catch up with my junior..oh we gossiped too. shhh. heh. thanks girl!

whenever im alone, i automatically will think of my life, and reflect on it. sometimes i do things even i thought hard whether i should..but sometimes, i am really mad and angry. partly im angry at the causes of my unhappiness, the other thing is that why is my life this unfair, this hard. i mean, if the things i have to bother about is work and my income, i can tide through, im strong enough for that. i can scrimp and save, but there are things that you cant scrimp and save on. and one of those is friendship. relationships on the whole. try as i might to cherish whatever i have..things dont work for me. i guess i do overdo things all the time, however something inside is telling me to cherish whatever i have. and somehow..i wanna fight for what i have. dunno la. my brain is killing me..i've been thinking too much. sigh. left jc, i dont want to lose the good friendships i have now. im afraid of people drifting away.

give me the beatboys and free my soul..i wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away...

did a colour test

received an email from my friend, discovered my (supposed-to-be) true colours.here goes.

Erina, your true color is Brown!

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy.
erm, ok, i dunno about that
Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision.
this is fake.
Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music.
somewhere there.
Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

it can get quite fake. i dont know myself that well..so its ok..its ok..i guess i did the questions honestly.

been busy with job searching, got no time to continue doing the melbourne trip..hope i get it done soon. and hope i get a job soon. sigh. feeling so useless and unchallenged. wish me luck!

argh.

what's the point of a group of friends if one doesnt want to be friends with another? someone will have to come out.

that'll be me.　我真的受伤了。

you dont deserve what you have, though. its not as if i deserve what i have...but this is what i really want you to know, whether you see this or not.

christmas 2005

this year...though there was a certain period of time i was happy, other than that, i was very miserable. hated my life, hated myself. never did i know that the guy up there would be that bad to me, that this xmas must be miserable too. hmmph. i must have been a very bad kid.

because, yesterday, which was christmas eve, i didnt get to go out with the band people because i had a temporary job to do. this temp job wanted me to go sell santa hats. oh, its alright what, shouldnt be that hard to sell. but stupid me didnt think too much.

when yixin and i reached the somerset mrt, supposed to meet the supplier there (note that i dont call him boss). collected 24 hats. siew peng then told us we had to sell at least 20 hats from 6pm to 11pm then we can get our pay of $50. ok la, not very demanding you may say. but sell the hats at $10 each?? please lo, the hats look so cheap! like if you tell me its $3, i will buy. $10!!!! yuck!

yixin and i just went along to sell the hats, but to no avail. i cant believe that there are actually people who are willing to spend the money. yixin sold 2 hats, i think those people were really hungry for those, and i sold none. there are actually big groups of people coming to me and ask me for the hats but when i tell them the price, they actually gave me a disgusted face, as if i really wanna cheat their money. wah lao.

so about an hr after we started both of us went back to the uncle and told him really too expensive. and he's like, 好咯，一个卖八块。$8 for one hat? still damm ex lo. grrr. and we went to centrepoint, the busy route there. after that 3 men approached us and showed us their passes. they're from NEA (national environment agency). and one of them were rattling on and he talked in a very rude way. i hate the way he talks. ya i know he didnt know, but i seriously forgot all about the licences! its like on the streets everyone is doing it, so what's the big deal? yea and i got warned, wanted to return to those uncles the goods but yea, they werent at the carpark at somerset mrt where we met. so i called them, told them to come down, they had to ask us to go this corner of the carpark so that officers wont be able to see them. kanasai. we passed the stuff and yixin returned the $20 she 'earned'. and the guy was like, ‘哎呀，他们不会抓的啦，我有问过！’ you come sell yourself la! see when you get caught then how lo. you can think like that cos its my future if i ever have a record. bloody hell. officers were around orchard road giving summons to those illegal peddlers...that includes myself and yixin but i guess we were lucky enough just to receive warnings. and also, i didnt get a single cent of pay. the whole stint didnt go by hours, and moreover, those sort of money...i dont really want.

however, thats not the end of a very bad christmas eve.

i wanted to pamper myself after this ordeal, went to plaza singapura and wanted to get some smoothie or blended juice and the sort to drink, to cool down. siggh. sat and drank at anderson's ice cream. after that due to the crowd i told yixin that, why not we take the mrt to marina bay so we can sit down. she was like, ok! and we sat at a corner, away from the speaker, and sat reading our storybooks. after that a lot of people walked out and we blur blur and followed suit. we were at ang mo kio. i got a shock, like how did we get there. and in the end, i realised that the line at marina bay is the north-south line, doesnt go to the east. we should have changed trains at raffles place at least. sigh. so we stupidly took the train back to raffles place and got on the right track. so sorry yixin!

went home and chatted with tsz shan over msn. good chat with her, made my xmas night seem less lonely. sigh. and i passed 12 midnight bathing. great. night spoilt. with no friends, no loved ones...

wished i was there.


oh and on the 23rd, christmas eve's eve, there's a christmas lunch at mj hosted by the band. i didnt get to eat any turkey. sigh. nevermind, ate some stuff, ran around with tsz shan who came, and after that went to tampines mall/century square with dawn, weile, hongwei and kaiyan. felix had to go to some passing out parade at his secondary school.

we were helping hongwei to find a present for yuhan when we saw a santa claus mascot with this supposed to be hot girl dressed in xmas costume and this other man. dawn got fascinated with the mascot, we decided to take a photo with him.

he's so cute haha

after that the man asked 'who wants to hug santa claus??' yes, and hongwei went to hug.

see how happy he was

left them at near 5pm..meeting the rest of the 7 of us (joan and huiying couldnt make it) to go to marina south for steamboat. went to chin huat 镇发活海鲜. jingyi chopped up the crabs for us..so nice ah..haha...had a great time with the girls.


went to my uncle's place in woodlands for this xmas lunch today..after that joan and yixin came over to my place...spent xmas with them too =D they reached at near 7pm, and chatted till 11pm or so...heh. at least i had company on xmas.

a chalet with band friends

weile dawn they all invited many of us to their chalet...but i only chose to go for the bbq la. took some photos here and there, quite high as we proceeded into the night. talk cock sing song, and we even had this singing marathon where they sang songs of the festivals of a year...like merry xmas then auld lang syne then cny songs and the like...funny la..had fun, talked to hongwei and felix in the room too. it was great la. yes. thanks guys.

me and weile at the bbq pit
in the room. quit it, felix. haha
A sized cup that attracts mock from hongwei
he reckons he should act surprised after all
sexy eh?
what's going on???
a rape attempt!
felix seems to be enjoying it
weile trying to pose in a handsome way
now now now, we see weile able to hug himself properly
if..well, you have an A sized cup...you may experience difficulty...
yes, this can be an alternative
they always want to be sexy
jinhai and me
dawn's birthday
when hongwei meets spiderman
oh. a massage session
the massager seems to be enjoying it. must be a real good job ... ...
... ... not