the first band pract after the exams

today's the first band pract after the a levels...was quite dreading it cos i lost touch liao ma, like never play since may..but on the way to school i was quite.....quite looking forward. a bit anxious too. looking fwd cos i dunno what i'll expect...whether when i blow into the mouthpiece i will get air through or i will get sound through...and anxious cos i scared i would play badly during the practice...but luckily, things went quite well, except that i couldnt and cannot catch up for those fast parts and weird fingerings parts. har.

i purposely woke up late la. i didnt wanna go for band early. heH. supposed to get to school at 0930, then i woke up at 8 plus..but ya climbed out of the bed like...quite near 9. so nua here nua there...i got out of the house at...0945? somewhere there haha. so irresponsible hor me. for today only la. the rest of the days i'll be early one. its the night after my last paper ma. reached school at 1045 like that..then took a tuba and went off to warm up.

still ok la my tone i guess. not that bad after all..im also not sure whether its worse than last time. but my mouth got tired very easily leh...like play a bit cant tahan le..must go for pract all the time liao...but the thing is..i still got prom to prep leh...band pract like got a lot of whole day ones...dilemma dilemma dilemma..dont hope i have to pon lo. dont wanna make ms sia mad.

speaking of ms sia...ya today she wasnt in a good mood. i think what actually caused it was miscommunications ba..sigh. so messy.........

i lost touch with notes. as in the musical notes, not the lecture notes. uH, im having trouble sight reading...oh man...just that the score was written in a quite stranger way..i cannot understand already. like have to stare at the score and glue my eyes to it. with that i wont be able to see the conductor. choose one, you say. no i must have two. so i guess...more practice for me to know the score better...

the practice was...quite tormenting for me. psychologically and physically. the former that im afraid i wont be able to catch up, the latter that my lips were swelling and they were like harder.

but after all, im glad to be back.



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