Zoo or Zouk?

There's going to be a bash for Shearites as well as JC kids tomorrow at Zouk. Starts at 8 p.m., I know my dad wouldn't like me hanging out so late, but I bought the ticket nevertheless.

So called my dad in the afternoon and told him about it. He was expressionless about it. I wondered why and realised, maybe he thinks I'm going to the zoo instead of Zouk.

OH NO.

But well after that he asked me about Zouk so ya. He didn't get the wrong idea. By the way. I'm home!!!

Ya. Moved things back already. And now my room is in a big mess! Like everything is everywhere. Only managed to sort out the clothes today. Shall do the table and shelves...have to do the day after already.

EEw.

China can get rather...uh...sleazy online now. No offence.

For a start, still no offence to anyone, I was studying with Amy at the Biz library the other day when I was sitting beside this male PRC (People's Republic of China - we say PRC to refer to a Chinese National). And I wasn't concentrating on my work and I accidentally saw what he was doing. And he was looking at pictures of girls in bikinis or extremely little clothes exposing here and there. I got all disgusted I SMSed Amy who was sitting opposite me. She said no wonder she thought she saw the guy smiling to himself. HOW GROSS IS THAT. Imagine someone getting high beside you. Terrible.

And then I was at a youtube-like website which is set up by the Chinese, and was watching my show happily when I saw this 'recommended picks' showing a shot of an ass. And two fingers poking at it.

Even if the ass belonged to a kid, it is still disgusting to post it. Like, paedophiles? Eeew.


Blow up the picture.

In case you don't read Chinese, the top left circle indicates the title as a very hot or something beauty using the toilet. Bottom, 'Are they wearing bras??' Right top, the ass I was talking about. 'A beauty being raped in the classroom'. Below it, 'A guy harassing a beauty on the train'.

What happened to Confucian teachings? The titles of the videos are damm gross.

Well I didn't even click them, I didn't watch don't worry.

And they're like, recommended?

We can't prevent what we can't predict

I was watching Desperate Housewives these days, since the exams ended? Probably around there. Lost track of days.

And I saw a darned good episode. It could be the best out of so many DH episodes. I cried! Hello, it's the bitchy soap opera that Erina cried over. But it was very good. Season 3 episode 7. Catch it. If you don't want to, I have a spoiler here. Or just ignore this post if you have no time to read.

It all started with Catherine Bigsby confronting Bree Hodge if the latter gave up on her husband Orson, because Catherine was trying to help Bree. But Bree didn't, she had her reasons, he had his explanations, so Bree wanted to take revenge for getting hurt and told Catherine about her husband's affair with a French air stewardess, Monique. Who was murdered eight months ago.

Catherine's husband Harvey was the owner of the local supermarket. Quite a huge one. And she called him while he was busy to ask about Monique. So he had to hang up, and she was 'calm'. She didn't throw tantrums or cry or anything. She went to get the gun from the drawer and made her way to the supermarket.

And so she fired a shot at her husband and missed. Harvey ran into his office and Catherine took the surrounding people hostage. And whoever else who was stuck in the supermarket. A guy who worked in the supermarket tried to escape through the back door and he was shot. But escaped alive.

Lynette who was in the supermarket too tried to call her husband Tom and he didn't manage to answer in time, Catherine was pointing the gun at Lynette.

So other than the calafares, the main cast who were held hostage were Julie Mayer, Austin, Lynette, Nora, and Art the newbie in the neighbourhood.

The police came, and stationed outside the supermarket.

In the meantime, neighbours around Wisteria Lane gathered at Bree's house and watched the news together to catch up with the reports about the supermarket. And it was quite a nice sight, it's like the neighbours getting together to tide through an ordeal together.

Tom, Lynette's husband, was with Susan (Julie's mum) outside the supermarket. Their conversation moved me. Susan was very sad because the last thing she said to Julie was that she was very disappointed in her. Tom assured her that Julie will be fine, and she told him Lynette will be alright too. Tom said he's not worried about Lynette, she can get out of trouble with her power to convince. He added that Lynette only needed to go to the store the next day, but they ran out of hamburgers at home, so she had to go get hamburgers. And Tom tearfully said 'I want to eat hamburgers...' It was just sooooooooooooooooooooo freaking sad!

And there was a gunshot.

Nora who was Tom's ex spoke to Lynette when they're not allowed to. Catherine pointed the gun at them and told Lynette that 'you and your friend is getting on my nerves'. Lynette said Nora's not her friend. Nora told Catherine that Lynette wanted to steal her daughter, and Lynette said that Nora seduced her husband Tom. Well, that's the last thing a lunatic with a gun who was in the same situation would want to hear. And she shot Nora on the chest.

Nora was an extreme pain in the ass with her punkish stuck up attitude, but you know she wasn't evil or anything, she didn't deserve that! Lynette got hysterical, she hated Nora but didn't want her dead, and she started scolding Catherine and said that 'You were cheated on because maybe you deserved it!' And that's the last thing you'd want to tell to a lunatic with a gun. So Catherine wanted to kill Lynette too, pointed the gun at her and pulled the trigger when Art threw a product at Catherine's head. So Catherine missed and shot Lynette on the forearm. The gun fell to the floor and Catherine went for it, to be grabbed by Austin. In the end this calafare got the gun and pulled a bullet through Catherin'e's temple.

I started to cry when Nora died, because it got a bit too scary for a DH episode and I wasn't prepared for that! And I feel awfully sad for Nora. And got soooooooooo afraid that something bad would happen to Lynette too.

So when the people at Bree's saw that Julie came out safely they held up their glasses high in the air and cheered. I got quite touched at this scene...it's a very nice neighbourly gesture. Like you know your neighbour is safe and sound and everyone is happy about it.

Of course Bree was very guilty.

The episode ended with Lynette dreaming of Mary Alice who commited suicide in the beginning of DH. She was their neighbour. Lynette saw Mary Alice a while before she went into the house and shoot herself, but Lynette didn't continue asking what was troubling Mary Alice. In the dream Lynette asked Mary Alice, and asked her how she could help. Mary Alice didn't mind Lynette not asking, and told her 'We can't prevent what we can't predict'.

How true. We won't be able to avoid what we don't know will happen next. Makes life sooooo brittle, like you won't know what will happen and who you're going to lose. Ironically it IS life which made us not appreciate the people around us and feel all bad and guilty and sad when you lose someone.

Life's too hectic to fully appreciate your loved ones.

Kai Yan is enlisting!

This is so scary.

They're going to army again!

And I've been quite busy, as in we have been busy, I dunno what Hong Wei they all are doing anyway. Felix is busy. So am I. So we didn't have a meal before he goes in.

But well anyway, we're gonna have a meal when he books out.

Sorry!

But anyway, come out and be a man okay.

Chin Fung's Housewarming + Birthday Celebration

Chin Fung invited the Mermaids to his newly renovated flat at Bishan where he lives alone. But he lives at PGP during school term la. Anyway, he catered buffet for us. We got him a $150 gift card from TOPMAN. People, please pay up =D

The guys
YX and I with the birthday boy

His cake is from Rive. It's damn nice
Mermaids and the birthday boy
Uncle Jason presenting the gift to CF

Singing the Happy Birthday song






Chatting happily

Basil's Garage Sale

Basil, the exchange student from Switzerland, had a garage sale to clear his stuff before he left for a trip before he heads back to Switzerland. And it was some sort of farewell for him from us.

The note he left in the lift
With his beloved plant
The Swiss goodies!!! The cheese was a bit too strong for my liking though
Items up for garage
Guys who went to his room

Girls who went to his room
Autographing
Singing Auld Lang Syne
Ai Lin, Juli and me posing with Basil

This is his pig! So cute. Four-leaf clover for good luck
Anything wrong with the laptop? Guess.
Well nothing is actually wrong. Just that it's a Qwertz keyboard rather than a Qwerty that we use
Stamps I got from him! Their stamps are very pretty
He took a picture of one of the wandering lizards at Level 2 and printed it. Damn nice though I hate geckos

So I don't know if I'm gonna see Basil in my life again, I hope I do! It'll be nice =) We can look for him if we go to Switzerland. Take care my first Swiss friend!

A motivation for all

How motivating.

Lenticular clouds

I didn't know such clouds exist. A very beautiful phenomenon. I wanna see it too!

A new thing

Along with a quite nice-looking blogskin, there comes an ugly cbox. So whatever it is, you can tag there. Or leave a comment in the posts.

It's not even 7 yet and breakfast is ready.

And my eyes are red!

I wanna sleep!

It has been the dunno-how-many-th time that I cannot sleep!

As in I stay up the whole night and sleeping for a while in the day. Sighh. Something's terribly wrong with me.

And I feel like sleeping now. But I might as well stay up till 7a.m. and have some breakfast.

So I think I'll just roam around.

That's all

It's overrrr!!! Finally.

I'm feeling a bit aimless now though, like dunno how to fully utilise this break I have.

I think I also feel like going down to Kong Hwa (I dunno how you spell it exactly), the primary school that Ms Sia is teaching at and some sort of coach the tuba kids there with my mediocre knowledge. I have a feeling that generation of kids will have better musical background than me. Considering the kiasu parents we have today.

The last paper was quite tough la. General Biology. 60 MCQs in two hours. Some questions are simple, some aren't. Especially those asking you about the energy of life. E.g. the entire process of glycolysis, citric acid cycle, the electron transfer chain etc. So many questions about those I feel very unfair! Haha. Cos that's the chapter that I tak boleh. And then didn't ask a lot about the cells and the functions of the stuff in the cell. Just a bit here and there.

Holidays are here! So much that I wanna do.

Just shopped at VivoCity for the first time today. A huge place, a lot to shop! But there are shops are still closed la.

I owe a lot of people dates! So dunno if I can make it for everything. Chiong liao.

And I wanna find some roadshow jobs too. Gonna find with YX at Recruit Express. Just do for a few days and I'll be alright. No homework, gotta kill time!

OK, my eyes are awfully red. Freaking tired.

By the way, when I was having dinner, WJ SMSed me! Haha. Asked me about my last paper. Small delights in life.

Oh ya to add on, we went to eat at this affordable Hong Kong restaurant today. The food was so-so la. We chose to go there because of the prices. Will post photos soon la. Lazy. Haha.

I bought a pair of bermudas today at Pull and Bear. But there's something wrong with the workmanship of the bermudas. Will go back for exchange soon I guess. Didn't try it because it's a new one. The sewing wasn't in place. Dunno how to tell you. Haha.

OK..I need to catch up with packing, moving out of hall soon! Not staying for the holidays.

*shakes ass*

HELLO.

Last paper tomorrow.

Can't wait!

Woots.

Please please please.

And I hope I have the relieved feeling tomorrow after the paper. It's the best feeling after exams.

MJCSB going Japan soon la =(

Sickening old man

Can all you guys out there promise me that when you're old, don't be those ji-ko-pek (lecherous old man)?

This irritating old man was cycling past the bus stop behind hall when I was there today. He looked at me and started making those irritating noises at me! F***! Think I'm some prostitute or what? Or think I'm a maid? T_T And that isn't how people should look at maids in Singapore!

So gross!!! Even when he cycled past me already he was still looking back at me and making those noises!

I was only going for Mus'Art practice and I wasn't wearing like only a tube top and mini skirt for goodness' sake! I was wearing a polo tee and jeans! I cannot imagine what he'll do if there's another girl wearing spags and very short shorts. Disgusted. Feel like kicking him.

Just let me die of gross-ness.

I was hoping there would be some obstruction in front of him so he could fall off his bike and maybe break an arm. But he's so old! It's not that I'm apathetic to old people, but he's gross and old! That's a turn off.

And it's not the first time such things happened! The previous time was a Bangladeshi or Indian I dunno. Outside Mustafa centre. Same thing, cycling and staring at my chest! T_T If he had been making noises it would be damm disgusting and embarrassing, so many people were at the bus stop. And I'd have thrown a stone at him. Only another lady was at the bus stop just now.

Maybe I should just carry a large pebble around with me all the time. It'll just help me take revenge.

It just tells us how dangerous it is to work here for those foreign maids who only want to work here.

OK I'm admitting I tend to look like one.

Guys, don't grow old to become like that! Dregs of society!

And girls, don't grow old and try to charm a handsome lad! It'll be as gross.

I want to have a good rest.

I want to destress and do something not regarding work.

start time
0036.

Name
Erina.

Nickname
I don't think I have one.

If you were a Skittle, what colour you want to be?
Sour red.

Chinese zodiac
Rabbit.

Hair colour
Black.

Eye colour
Black to dark brown. I don't know. I don't go staring at myself.

Height
171cm.

Favourite colour
Maybe red? Depends.

Glasses
Yes.

Bunjee jumping?
I want to try. I need one now.

Jumped off a building?
What do you think?

Dumped someone?
Yep.

Been arrested?
Nope.

Tp'd someone's home?
What's tp?

Won something?
Ya.

Be rejected?
Of course.

Been to a funeral?
Yep. Several times.

Used a lighter?
No whenever I need to light up birthday cake candles I rub two sticks together and wait till they produce some flame and then try to light the candles but may end up burning the entire cake.

Been on stage?
Countless of times.


FAVOURITE

Season
Autumn and summer. I don't like it when it's hot but I don't really like winter I think. Never been thru the four seasons before. Been thru Vivaldi though.

Food
A lot. Pizza. Sushi. Food that I cooked. Some hawker fare. Most cheesy stuff.

Ice cream flavour
Vanilla and mint.

School subject
Uh. Math.

Person
My mum and dad. I know those are two people instead of a person, but I like them both.

Book (s)
A lot. Roald Dahl's children's books especially. Angels and Demons was the first book that thrilled me while reading. Five People You Meet In Heaven. Tuesdays with Morrie. And many many more. But I don't really re-read books.

Movie (s)
A number too. The Lion King. Finding Nemo. Cars. Pirates of the Carribean.

Song (s)

Mostly Josh Groban's and David Tao's. But recently I heard this Kenangan Terindah by Samsons, an Indonesian band. The song's quite nice.

Park

Not really any that I like..East Coast Park maybe.

State

Singapore is the entire state.

Place
Home

Sport to watch

Soccer

Band
...HSCCB and MJCSB, ha.

Letter (s)

E

Restaurant
Not many. Not a very restaurant kind of person. $$$.

Cartoon character
Don't think I really like any.

TV station
None..not really a very TV person.

Name for a son

Anything but Tom, Dick or Harry.

Name for my daugter
For your daughter? Call her Merry.

DO YOU PREFER

Chocolate or vanilla
Vanilla if you're talking about ice-cream.

Long relationship or short
Long for good ones.

Dogs or cats
Both!

Scary movies or comedies
Comedies

Short hair or long

I'm fine with both, but I feel like having short hair sometimes.

Croutons or bacon bits

Croutons

Kissing or hugging
Free hugs, anyone?

FIRST THING THAT COMES INTO YOUR MIND

Mexicans
Sombreros

School
Exams. Damn.

Grass
Green.

Canada
Maple leaf.

Mouse
Flowers for Algernon

Hands
To write.

FOR THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

Watched a movie
No. The last time I watched a movie was in July. Don't even know if I remember HOW to watch a movie. Do I get tickets after the movie?

Talked on a phone
Yep.

Threw up
Nope.

Drank a glass of water
Yes. A kopitiam glass of water.

Done drugs
I've done enough to kill myself.

Read a book or magazine
Textbooks.

Watched TV
Yes a bit.

Look in a mirror
Yup.

Taken a shower
Yep.

Taken a picture
No.

Listened to music
Now.

Kissed someone
No.

Told someone you like them
No.

Choose TEN people to do this quiz
You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you and you.

History repeated again

I screwed up another paper. Again.

Why do I feel like I'm so hopeless?

Is uni really my thing? Why can't I do it?

Nothing's that difficult in the exam, really.

I don't know why I didn't think of them.

I spent time to practise on the various techniques yesterday. Today one came out. It can be done, at least I can do it. I don't know why I didn't think of that technique.

Suddenly I understand how people feel when they commit suicide. It's that kind of...hopelessness in life, you don't know what your future holds for you, it feels like you're gonna have a bleak road in front of you. Why choose to walk that road then?

But I'm not going to jump, of course.

There's some sense of determination that I want to ace my exams the next round. But reality sets in and I wonder if I can pass this first. Or if I can stay in university first. Like...is there gonna be a next round? Even if there is. I don't have the feeling that I can do well. I don't just want to pass, I want to pass well. I don't think I can even hit a 2.5 for my CAP points this time.

What is happening to me?

Maybe I already am hopeless, just that I didn't realise it.

我讨厌我自暴自弃。

Time for a change

Hope I can make full use of the coming short vacation to change myself proper, to a better person.

Thanks for all the love.

Myself

There's something terribly wrong with myself.

I don't know what.

I couldn't quite make it for yesterday's programming paper already. Today's Basics of Math. Even worse. Couldn't do the questions at all. Most. As in probably I can only do one question out of six? No I didn't try my best. I knew how to do those. I don't know what happened to me. I don't know. Maybe I just couldn't think. Or probably I really can't do them la. I'm not smart at all. Not even an average student. I think I need to retake this module already. Sigh.

I don't know how come I'm like that ever since I came to uni. I've not been doing well, not only in my daily work and not for tests. I feel so distraught...like what's happening to me? I don't have to be the best, I'd be satisfied if I'm average. But I'm not. So far away from being 'average'. And I can roughly gauge my stand in school already. No I can't make it. Not at all. I must work harder.

Ya, probably I'm some lazy bum who didn't study at all and leave myself to have lousy grades. And to die on the streets.

No future at all, nothing that I can see myself do. Nothing at all.

I somehow told myself that I won't shed a tear in university. Oh well.

Maybe there was something I did or something I didn't do that I deserve this.

听妈妈的话

I couldn't take it, I cried on the phone while talking to mum before the paper today, at around 9 plus when I couldn't go back to sleep. Was really very angry at my bad luck at the start of the day also. It was like, what a way to start my exams.

I feel bad. It's like I keep making my mum and dad worry about me over the slightest thing. For the past week for about four days my dad brought me out to have brunch, so I didn't really have to worry about nothing to eat when I wake up. My mum will always listen to my woes no matter how tired she was after work. We usually talk when she calls me after work on her way home.

This morning when my mum and I were on the phone she said I always worry her because I cry over exams every year. -_-. Well yes I think since preparing for the O levels I've been breaking down during pre-exams. But I hardly cry post-exams because I gave up on the papers when I know I couldn't make it at all. She said she told me to go to a polytechnic so I can go to work straight after graduation, and not go to JC and have to go a step further to uni. I think it also hurts her to know that I suffer when I'm studying. Not that I want to. But it's quite a hard adjustment to make. I think I'm only one of the weaker ones around la.

“你要振作啊。” I cried when she said that, because I think it was the first time she really encouraged me and told me to pull myself up. She used to say during my JC days that if I cannot then give up, it's alright. But well of course I won't do that to myself. She just doesn't want me to suffer so much. I was angry at her for saying such discouraging words and I told her she ought to encourage me. That was probably last year while preparing for my prelims. That surge of emotions this morning...I don't know how to put into words. Plus the stress. Though it was just a short sentence but it meant so much to me, moreover I don't live at home for long anymore and I hate to make her miss me. You know when your parents miss you la.

Love my mum so much so much so much. I don't wanna hurt my parents in any way. I hope I don't and I won't.

Pek cek

And my dad had to call me at 8 plus to wake me up out of goodwill in case I oversleep for my exam. He didn't know my papers are in the afternoon. So in all I slept for probably three hours plus a bit.

For the past week I painstakingly tuned myself to be the most awake and productive in the afternoons so that I can be the same for my exams. And today is the start of my exams. And all the tuning is gone. I can't go back to sleep like I usually can.

Imagine cursing in the morning of the start of your paper.

I am very agitated with myself. Bloody stressed.

Sigh

Look at the time now. I've been lying in bed for over an hour and I still can't sleep.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Si bei sian. Really. Why is this only happening to me.